下雪预报_12.23.21
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2020年12月23日20:30发
本博客于12月23日20:30发布下雪预报，表示北京市区未来7天有3成或以上机会下雪，或有1成或以上机会出现积雪。
目前可以确定28日会有一波强冷空气至寒潮南下，北京地区将出现明显降温大风天气。由于寒潮来袭时有强烈的锋前抬升作用，具备下雪的动力条件。现在ECMWF预报28日夜间到29日早上北京有可能出现少量降雪，在1毫米以内。GFS也预报了一定量的降雪，也在1毫米以内，而其他欧洲的二线数值没有报出降雪。总体上本次降雪的形势类似十二月十日晚八点的那场，属于动力极强水汽不足强行“挤”出降雪的类型。如果高空有一点点水汽，即可“大力出奇迹”，但如果没有水汽则不会有降雪。综合来看，博主认为北京29日夜间前后出现降雪的机会有6成，出现积雪的机会有1成。本博客将于25日改发降雪注意报、延长降雪预报或取消降雪预报。
RBSN 12232030 01610 00XX3
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Communism and passive suicidal ideation
Hello everyone. I'm Wright the Commie.
（如果不想看瞎扯可以跳过这段）
（Feel free to skip if you want no bull and a lot of talk qwq）
Feeling dizzy and don't wanna study after that horrible headache that almost sent me to Marx and Lenin (lol). Don't know whether it means another episode of depression which is the last thing I want in such a pinch, but anyway.
Had some terrific gaming experience tho. Recent WN8 2200+. Got the 3485M and 44, feeling great with both. Also getting familiar with the playstyle of the Super-Pershing. AE Phase I is also good except for the ridiculous MM. Hated my IS-7 and anything with bad gun handling anyway...
Only got 2 exams and my aim's just a B+ for both of them so no need to worry. B would also be fine.
For the other courses, Marxism is safe (?) 4 while Situations and Policies is a toss-up. The experiment courses are probably B/B+. Programming is a P/F so ignore that. PE... well let's not talk about that lol. Japanese is withdrawn... Love the language but, well.
（跳过这段就到这里了）
（Serious stuff from here）
Then, let's talk about some serious stuff today. Late last night I saw an article introducing something called "passive suicidal ideation", and it struck me like lightning. It basically means you have one or more of the following thoughts: (√ means I have had the thought, × means the opposite)
- "I don't wanna live but I don't wanna die either" (√)
- "I don't wanna die. I just wanna disappear" (√)
- "I won't run for my life if an earthquake struck right now" (√ but years ago)
- "I wish to get COVID-19 cuz it's a wonderful experience with a low mortality. Even if I really die it'll be still fine for me, as I don't wanna live on anyway." (√)
- "I wish to not wake up tomorrow"（×）
- "The world would be better if I were dead"（×）
- "I'd rather be a dead body"（×）
- "I'd rather be a dead body that can think (√)" (zombie? lol)
- This one might be weird: "PARRRRRRTIYA LEEEEEENINA SIIIIILA NARRRRRRRODNAYA NAS K TORZESTVU KOMMUNIMA VEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDYOT!!!!" (√) (This is actually rooted in desperation and exhaustion from living in a capitalistic society. I would rather live in a revisionist USSR than somewhere outright capitalist...) (The USSR anthem, 1988 ver. is really appealing to my ears, second only to El Pueblo Unido, 1974 ver/2019 live ver. The chorus was probably feeling the same kind of desperation or outright protest (against the USSR authority making them sing the hymn for something (communism) they hate) yelled the lyrics this hard.)
In the end, this isn't nearly as dangerous as active suicidal ideation as your attitude to life is "neutral" instead of "negative", but it certainly isn't the best thought you want to have. For me, every time I come with up this kind of thought, I feel as if my head was made of hammers and sickles. For thousands of times I imagined (but rarely desired) myself committing suicide or being killed in various ways, from common ones like a firing squad to the most bizarre ones like a direct hit by a meteorite or a stomp by a dinosaur. In almost all of the cases, I would be yelling some communist slogan right before the event. Why such a weird scenario?
(To be continued)
Left? Right? Science!
As you guys probably know, I'm an economically far-left commie and socially left-right mixed (but generally left-leaning). For example, I fully support equal rights of adoption and marriage of LGBTs which is quite progressive but won't agree with my friend who got super offended on some unintended "offensive" comment in a BP tournament. I actually spoke up for the opponent team after the formal debate, when I saw my friend reporting them to the org committee even after they repeatedly apologized. This is not so "progressive", right? Another example here. I fully support giving the title right 冠姓权 to the females, a far-left opinion, but will fight back fiercely against anyone who opens fire on their ally, refuse to negotiate, and use all the condescending, offensive (not "perceived to be offensive") language and personal harassment for the cause of "justice". Drug legalization? No-no. Pretty right-wing in the eyes of some if not most BP debaters (this may be a generalization and possibly politically incorrect, but I don't give it a damn), but perfectly acceptable for at least a significant portion of communists. Why do many Chinese communists, far-left by definition, not "so" socially progressive even when compared to Western social democrats? The reason's simple: we don't believe in identity politics and those biased (again, this may be "offensive", but I've never personally attacked anyone who expressed their liberal or right-wing political opinions that I consider offensive (like those generalizing the communists), and I expect you to do the same) "first principles" that assume western "liberal" democracy and social progressivism in the western sense to be impeccable. Instead, we start from scratch and find truth from fact. China's banning drugs and has very low drug-related crime rate and death rate, while the West has generally been struggling with drug-related issues, so why bother to lift the ban when everything's going the right way? Deng Xiaoping's introduction of capitalism brought a spurt of rapid growth and I appreciate that. But nowadays as the economic gap grows to an unprecedented and unacceptable level and overwork-related death (karoshi) is claiming the lives of hundreds of intellectuals and future scientists, so why not bring socialism back? We have mighty supercomputers to compose the economic plan and a highly efficient transportation network to help arrange the resources, so we do have the reason to expect a socialist planned economy to actually work (and it worked well in the mid-20th century USSR). All in all, communists use science, or Materialist Dialectics in Marxist terms, while liberals use Western first principles. I don't care if you label me as Nazbol, Pinky, Commie or whatever, just go ahead and talk with your comrades and don't ask for trouble here.
バイポーラ, radicalism and こんむにすむ（in 日本語）
さて、日本語のニックネームを決めました～～
「あさり」と申します～よろしくお願いします！
（中国人なので日本語は上手とは言えません。どうぞご了承ください）
（今回は一応敬語を使うけど、これからはため口で書くつもりで～す！）
こんばんは、あさりです。今回は、「きょうさんしゅぎ、急進主義、バイポーラの関係」の経験談です。一見関係ないだろうとも思えるでしょうが、実は私が…
「バイポーラだから急進、急進だから社会主義からホンモノのきょうさんしゅぎに」と思っています。こうなると、人生の意義が「インターナショナルの実現」に変わってしまいます。すべてが「赤くなる」のです。他者から見れば「あの人はCommieだ」程度で済むが、実は苦しいです。なぜなら、気分が落ち込む時、いけないことをやっちゃうリスクが高くなります。「生きるのが苦しいなあ、意味がない、もういやだ」と思ってしまうときは、普段の「両親がいる、友達がいる、お国があるからあきらめるな！」ではなく、「そうそう。お前がいなくてもインターナショナルは実現する。お前のような頑張らなく、ネガティブなエネルギー満々なヤツなどもういらない！」の思いがこみ上げてくる。運が良い時は「せめてインターナショナルが実現するあの日まで生きたい」と気分が多少よくなるけど、そうでない時は「そう、おれはもういらない、消えてしまったほうがマシかも。苦しいし、つまらないし。」と…もう怖くて書きたくないです（笑）。ですが、こんなエピソードを経験したことが数回しかなく、さらに今はクスリのお陰で（やや）安定しているからご安心ください。
では、なぜうつや軽そうのエピソードにCommie度が増えるでしょうか？
我大E了啊，没有看雪
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下得这么大，有什么好说的？
为什么这种时候偏偏在校外有事？没心情写报文
RBSN 12121930 88X71 11004
有戏！下雪警报_12.12.11
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2020年12月12日10时45分发
本博客于12月12日10时45分发出下雪警报，表示北京市区未来24小时内有9成以上可能出现降雪，或有7成以上可能出现积雪。目前ECMWF、GFS、GRAPES等数值模式均大幅上调上望至降雪0.5毫米左右，不排除达到1毫米的可能。因博主心情不好，不想再细看气压配置、剖面图等，姑且稍微激进预报，认为北京市区降雪概率有9成，出现积雪概率有5成。预计乐观情况下降雪0.5-1毫米，草坪会刷白但不会有明显积雪，即积雪“0厘米”。悲观情况下仅看到“头皮屑”样降雪。降雪最乐观时段在今晚21时左右，请勿错过！
RBSN 12121045 08950 11014
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下雪预报解除_12.11.17
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2020年12月11日17:00发
本博客于12月11日17时解除下雪预报。美、欧、德等国模式预报均不支持降雪，动力条件尚有但水汽相当弱，加之低空湿度较低，故降水概率很小。12-13日北京出现降雪概率下调为1成，积雪概率下调为0成。因下雪预报需要降雪概率大于或等于3成或积雪概率大于或等于1成，故取消下雪预报。
RBSN 12111700 10100 00230
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