Mood disorders' love (rap)
Blue=depression
Red=bipolar 2
Brown=bipolar 1
black=all three
Hey there everybody I'm depression, different from you guys' old impression;
I may sometimes appear just lazy, and I don't often cry all day!
Hello comrades I'm bipolar two, the same is mostly true for me too;
turbulent, inconsistent, maybe a little incompetent, but I could still fit in well, right?
Everyone out there! Bipolar one's here! I sing I yell, did you hear?
No, cuz I'm hospitalized? A few more weeks and I'll see the light!
Inpatient? Impatient! I don't need that kind of treatment!
Take the medicine twice a day, and I can appear happy and gay! (别杠这个“gay”了)
Happy and gay? What did you say? I may laugh but I'm rarely happy!
Things I love, foods I crave, don't make sense when the depression's grave!
You eat less? I wish to be this! When episodes come I overindulge!
Bipolar two, that's not true! We may all eat more or less when episodes arrive!
That's quite accurate, it depends on the patient, one-size-fits-all description is no longer relevant!
Sometimes I feel like a hero, I feel greater than usual, three hours' sleep and my energy's full, comrades fight for the International! (manic episodes)
I'll join you, for our goal, sing El Pueblo Unido! (also has hypomanic episodes)
Here we go, rock and roll, grab that stuff worth a million euro!
No, no, no, how crazy are you? My hypomanic episodes are milder than you!
I sleep less, I feel good, but other people barely notice that!
Agree with you! That's how I feel! Terribly down but very few know! Not necessarily suicidal!
When I say "life has no meaning", that's a sign it's worsening!
If I say I wanna disappear, that means I'm in despair!
Don't make us stay up for work, that's triggering symptoms' onset!
All we want is to live the normal way, don't be too pushy on our GPA!
When mania comes it's not my fault, when depression comes it's not my fault!
And down with discrimination, illnesses can not define a person!
豆知识1：根据NIMH，major depression在美国成年人中的患病率为7.1%，其中18-25岁为13.1%，几乎每7人就有一人；bipolar disorder在美国成年人的患病率为2.8%，其中18-29岁为4.7%，几乎每20人就有一人。
豆知识2：有研究表明depression平均减少期望寿命（俗称“折寿”）5年，bipolar disorder平均“折寿”10-20年。
豆知识3：据研究估计，depression的患者大约有2%会死于自杀；又有研究估计，介于25%和60%之间的bipolar disorder患者会有自杀行为，介于4%和19%之间的会真的自杀成功。
(To the tune of El Pueblo Unido (English version), link:
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Get up and go, bipolar and depression
To see the doc, and take your medicine
The cure is hard, the treatment is easy
And you'll see, the broken life coming back to its beauty,
and believe one day,
withered flowers will bloom once again.
No need to fight, no more involution
Come into terms with the rocky condition
We shall once more, live a normal life
No staying up, no competition.
And now the troubled, united in their struggle, will never give up till victory...
The people united will never be defeated!
ついに○○をやめることにした。
ついに○○を辞めることにした。
これからは夜更かししなくてもいい。
不安もしない。
他者に責任を負う必要も、ほとんどない。
メールも、見なくてもいい。
深夜の会議も、もうない。
もう悩まないから勉強や研究の効率スゴ～～～
今は効率２０％でもギリギリセーフなので、
来学期は２８単位があっても暇い。
春になってからTCもどんどん発生し始めるから、ひまい時は気象予報もやる。
日本語を勉強し続けてN1を目指し、ドイツ語の（２）も登録した（冬休み中、DuolinguoやYoutubeで勉強してCEFR A2レベルまで上げないとT＿T）。今は日本語CEFR B1からB2、ドイツ語A1だけど、少なくともそれぞれC1、B2に上がろう。それからはスペイン語、世界語でもやろうと思う。（フラグ：留学に行くまで日本語N2高得点合格(N1.5)、GOETHE（ドイツ語）B2合格もしくは同等レベル、スペイン語・イタリア語・世界語のなかの２つ、B1レベル）
野球は激下手qwq 来年は三振しなくていい。バントでもいい、フォアボールでもいい。パワーなくて犠飛さえ不可能…守備も弱いからゲッツーの心配がなくて楽だけど。
TOEFLも、心配ない…ん…だろう？
こんなに落ち込んだ毎日、サヨナラ！
万物皆可报之心情发报
11月中旬以来算是一直处于稳定期。状态总体上还算OK，就是有时候失眠，比如这次。想睡觉呢结果又有社团的事，下床就又不想睡了。这个文章（随时更新）是记录心情的。
例：
2020/12/6/0 S 3+ 2 ()
日期/0123=凌晨早上下午晚上
S=稳定期，D和M的意思你猜。第一个3是心情（1-5），第二个2是潜在工作效率（如果没有什么活而如果来了活就能很投入，也算较高）。若有诱因记在（）里面。
2020/12/5/0 S 3 1 (game)
2020/12/5/1 S 3 2
2020/12/5/2 S 3 1
2020/12/5/3 S 3- 2
2020/12/6/0 S 3+ 2
2020/12/6/1 S 3 1
2020/12/6/2 S 3+ 2
2020/12/6/3 D 2 2+
2020/12/7/1 D 1 2+
2020/12/7/2 S 3 2+
2020/12/7/3 S 3- 2
2020/12/8/0 S? 4 3+
2020/12/8/1 S? 3 2
2020/12/8/2 M? 3+ 4
2020/12/8/3 M? 4+ 3+
2020/12/9/1 M? 4+ 3
